I may be the stupidest person that I know.
I don’t think I was always so stupid. I was second in my class during my junior year in high school, but it was a crumby, suburban public school so this is probably about like being declared Her Royal Highness of the Divine Dipsh*ts (HRHDD). I still graduated at #11 which is pretty impressive considering I tanked it hard my senior year getting more B’s than I had in the 12 years prior combined. I also got a couple C’s. And I got an F in Chemistry II during the last six weeks which is especially notable because I had, 2 weeks prior to graduation, received not only the departmental chemistry award, but also the award for outstanding science student of the year.
Science, math and English were easy for me and outside of doing the work didn’t require much effort. History is another story. I really sucked at history, economics and government studies, which is to say I had to try in these classes, and so I hated them. I now finally feel the void and have been relearning bits and pieces of these subjects as they relate to my current interests. For example, I’m not sure one can really understand or appreciate the impact that The Beatles had if they don’t also understand what the world was like during and prior to the 1960s.
It’s not like I didn’t learn critical thinking and complex problem solving in college. I do that boring-ass sh*t at work every day, all day long.
But as far as current events and recent politics are concerned, I’m practically retarded. I don’t say that to be offensive. And it’s probably not stupidity, it’s ignorance.
I started this entry yesterday and then came across a related article shared by a friend on Facebook. I find it weird how coincidences like getting a link to this article keep happening; collective consciousness, I guess. http://deadstate.org/study-reveals-people-who-watch-fox-news-are-less-informed-than-people-who-watch-no-news-at-all/
Texas is full of Fox News only watchers. I currently fall into the category of people who watch almost no news at all. Based on this study, I’m probably not the absolute stupidest or most ignorant person I encounter on a daily basis. But shouldn’t I learn to how to watch the news without letting it send me into depression or panic? Because it is unacceptable for someone my age to know so little about the world.
I used to have the local news on in the mornings. Chicago News started almost every day with a story about somebody being stabbed, attacked, raped, beaten, and/or shot in one of the many neighborhoods that I knew to stay away from. I could tell that Dallas News was different, but it wasn’t until about two months here that I realized how. Dallas likes to bury its urban pain, death and dismemberment about 25-35 minutes in to the newscast. Chicago news is for the urbanites; Dallas news is for the suburbanites.
I haven’t faithfully followed the news in a while. It’s depressing and complicated and scary. I typically end up focussed on the daily recap of how one person or group of people wants to or tries to or actually ends up killing another person or group of people. Reporters are rarely able to report on the whys of the incidents, and it’s the humanity of it all that really confuses and depresses me. I have long been a reader of Rolling Stone magazine, although I now greatly prefer Mojo. I read the RS cover story on Jahar Tsarnaev, the Boston Bomber. I read it back in August (I’m typically a few issues behind), and it still bothers me. The cover of the magazine claims that it shows how he became a monster, but I didn’t really see the connection, not that I don’t believe he did it or that he was justified in doing it. I appreciated how the article goes beyond the “just the facts” approach of the nightly news because in the end, this is the information I really want to know. That is, of course, until I do read about it and then get freaked out and decide that I should just go back to not following the news at all because it’s easier that way and I am only one person who doesn’t know anything and I couldn’t do anything even if I wanted to because nothing I do could make a difference anyway. I’ll just go back to my corporate zombie existence with a little mindless pop culture sprinkled in for variety and to stave off total effing insanity.
I’m going to seemingly veer off topic a bit now but will be able to link it into the rest of the entry, I promise. I have a secret. I recently developed a monster crush on a musician in a band that has not released anything in about 7 or 8 years, but he released a solo album a couple years ago. I have done several fairly pedestrian internet searches on said musician and found out more than a person really ought to know about a total stranger. Please don’t call the authorities or send in the guys that have the white jackets with the buckled sleeves; it’s just a crush.
During my searches, I found an interview given by this musician on energy and world and local economies. He says “you know” WAY too much. But damn, this guy is gorgeous, talented, AND freaking smart! This, in turn, makes me feel like a prize idiot. I am not worthy to crush on this person. In the interview he recommended a book that he read about the topic he was discussing. I bought the book. I don’t expect to be able to understand it all, but I want to stop being the most ignorant person in any given room, Fox News watchers excluded. And it is related to environment and sustainability which are topics that interest me as evidenced by my specialty in environmental studies in college, a passion that has been largely ignored since taking a job in order to feed myself, the apparent goal of my job being to cover entire states in concrete and asphalt to relieve traffic congestion. This silly crush may be the catalyst that finally forces me to learn how to follow and process news and world events without totally shutting down so that I can be a productive member of society. And at 39, it’s about time. So thank you, Nathanial Castro! You make me aspire to be a better person. You have indie rocked my world!!!
Days exercised (consecutive): 0
Days exercised (total): 23 – 66%
Days Diet DP free: 35 – 100%
Thankful today for: girl’s night out last night! Laughter is good for the soul.
Non post related: Shocker! I had to work again on a Saturday. And I think I’m getting the flu.